weakest ? friends ?

why izzit i am always the weakest ?? weak in STUDY , weak in SWIMMING , weak in EVERYTHING !!! In my family , i'm the youngest , and oso the weakest and the most ugly and fat ... In school , i'm the weakest among my friend ... In swimming , i'm the slowest swimmer in my lane ... Izzit the fate tat i was born to be a loser ? I've a lot of friend , they come near me when they need me , and when i was lost , nobody is around me ... Izzit this call as best friend ? whenever i had a problem , i couldn't find a friend in school to talk with .. In the list of all my friend , just two of them are my best friend , the real best friend .. although both of them are boy , but it doesn't matter ... at least they would listen to me , always be there to help me and support me ... when i broke records or getting the first place in swimming competition , everyone came and talked with me , and when i was fall behind , i felt lonely ... izzit because of i'm weak , you all stayed away from me ? Izzit because of i'm not as fast as before , you all look down on me ? Izzit because of my result was not as good as before , you all dont wan to friend with me ? I've friends always playing , joking , fooling around me , and yet i'm felt so lonely and sad ..........