Saturday, August 22, 2009

forever ??

can our friendship last forever ? At first , there are seven of you in the 'gang' , then when in form three , added in one more , that's me , then formed the eight of us , the crazy gang ... Now , one of us are in the different school , one of us are in the different class ... We have our own friend too ... "Sometimes we hurt our friend's feelings , but we don't know ... They cry alone , but we don't know ... They pray for us , but we don't know ... " and now as a friend of you all , i'm really sorry if i did anything to hurt you ... I'm always very scared to be alone and to left behind you all , that's why i'm so care about what you all think of me ... Fat ? Annoy ? Stupid ? I'm always thinking that i'm the weakest among you all ... you all are clever, pretty, rich and much more , and me ? Nothing !!! I'm scared that people will look down on me ... when you all ask me to do something, i don have the confidence to do that ... Start from standard three , my confidence is gone ... I not dare to lead people , not dare to anything , just like a coward ... Will you all look down on me ? Every time i was left behind , i was pretending that i was happy and used to it ... But i really tired of pretending .. pretend that i was happy when i was left alone , pretend that i was ok when my marks is the lowest , pretend that i wont mind my body size when you all laugh at me , pretend that i was not angry when you all play at me ... i'm so tired of pretending ... can anyone help me ? Although you all are my best friends , but i cant find a reason to tel you all about my problems , about my sadness , about my loneliness ... sometimes i try to mixed in with you all , but i cant , i'm trying my best to do it , but it still cant ... sometimes our topic are different , our thinking are different ...

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