压力

考试年又来了

压力又增加了

今年的我

想独立，

想靠自己的能力来养活我自己

想靠自己的能力来孝顺父母

想靠自己的能力来做所有的事情

但

我能吗？？？

工作， 让我觉得压力

因为，赚的永远比不上花的

银行的储蓄越来越少了

然

我坚持不和爸妈拿一分钱

只因

我不想输给我的哥哥。。。

课业，让我觉得压力

因为，至今我还没有复习

就要考试了，而我还在发白日梦

想要努力，但还是很懒惰

我，真的不想输给我的哥哥。。。

哥， 我并不是样样都要和你们比

只是我也要像你们一样，

我不想成为这个家的负担。。。

怎么办???

考试

要到了

感觉

害怕了

想

读书了

但

懒惰了

不想

被家人骂

不想

被别人看不起

不想

成绩不及格

不想

以后才来后悔

然

我也

不想读书

没心

懒惰

爱睡

爱玩

统统都有

这样的我

还有希望吗？

我

我，中六了

虽，长大了

但

压力多了

功课多了

考试难了

时间少了

玩乐少了

快乐也少了

想尽办法来克服压力，但，失败了

很努力的想做完功课，但，懒惰了

想要专心听老师讲课，但，分心了

我，长大了

也，失败了

也，想哭了

在这世界上，有个角落能让我喘口气，发泄，释放吗？

GIVE UP

this is the second time i joined sukma... the different between both time were , the first time i was to be take care by the others, but then this time, i was the captain and have to take care of all my teammates... this sukma for me got many memories, both good and bad, happy and sad...the first sukma i joined, all my results got improved, but this one, the results were sucks!!! our penang girls polo team was the last!!! problems were keeps popping out along the way to sukma... argue , less communicates, less cooperation between teammates, coach and team manager ... are we a team???

I HATE THIS TEAM !!!

for some of our teammates,

lazy to training but aiming for winning;

crazy to all those boys and talk to them in the middle of the night during the competiton;

i got left out and they said i' the one who purposely left out them;

ask them to train harder and they said i'm too serious and self-disciplined....

WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP THIS TEAM ???

i think the answer is no others way but to give up...

In this team, this competition, i think i did a lots of mistakes too... so, i admit, i'm a FAILED captain, i have no any potential to lead a team, i have no any idea on how to lead a team also....

So, now, i had decided, to give up on the girls team, the polo team, and maybe some of my friends...

思念

思念就像旋转楼梯，永远向上；

思念就像石头，让心变得沉重；

思念就像毒品，让人渐渐上瘾。。。

过去？未来？

想念过去的生活，

怀念过去生活的方式，

贪念过去那无需担忧生活的日子。

以前总是想快点长大，

想快点离开学校，考试，

现在离开学校了，

然而，

我却常常不由自主地，

想回到那无须担心生活费，工作的

那个地方。

如今的我

对于未来会是如何，

仍然觉得茫然一片，

前面的路该怎么走，

说实话，

我真的一点都不晓得。

但，

人生依旧要向前的，

不是吗？