PLS LET US GO !!!

so tired today ... trying to find work to do so tat i can get this problem out from my mind .... trying to keep calm and nothing so tat wont hurt teacher tat much ... feel so sorry and worry for teacher when i saw her tears ... keep controlling my tears from falling down so tat teacher can relax a little bit .... back to home .. when complaining to my mum, i almost cried out, but again, i control it .... and when i went in to toilet, i cant control again ... i don wan to cry out loud an make my parents worry ... but i really feel very pain in my heart ... why izzit she dont wan to let us go ? why izzit she cant think more wisely ? why izzit she cant think from our sides ? you make us suffer A LOT , you know ? you just know how you feel and how you going to revenge, but did you think of us ? we are just like the meat between a hamburger ! is your decision from beginning til now, and yet you ask us to explain and clean all the garbage tat you left for us .... did you feel tat is very UNFAIR to us ? why izzit you always think only for yourself ? you are so SELFISH ! if you wan to still wan to blame, pls go and blame your enemy, and not the teacher !!! we are all victim! not tat you are the only one ! can you just keep your head calm and think how to solve it without blaming us again ? we are tired now ! so, just let us GO !!!

sorry

feel so sorry tat tel both of you about tat things ... so sorry tat i make you two nervous and scare ... at first, we think if we are respect you, then we should tel you ... but then after telling you, i saw your changes in mood and everything, i feel so sorry ... i apologize to both of you, if j had make you two worried and i had disturbed both of you .... i think i should never go to see both of you and talk to you two .... because i scare your fly will kill me and my appear will make you two feel annoying and scary ... so sorry ... from now on, i think i should never tell both of you about tat thing again .... because i still dono whether it is good or bad to tell both of you the truth ..... or just let it over and dont mention it again is the best to you .... sorry for the interruption and disturbance...

what to do ???

still feeling very stress and tired ... no mood at all .... i knew tat you all care for me and willing to help me ... but i dono how to tel you all my problems .... it's complicated i think ... i knew i should be happy and dont think too much ... but sometimes the problem just came out suddenly ... it's annoying but i just cant get rid of it .... feel difficult to breathe everytime face this problem .... dono how to solve and to take what action .... got who can help me ? i ady tried my best not to think abt it but still cant ... really really very tired ... wan to cry out and scream out, but cant, i scare to let ppl especially my family to know abt this ... how ? i feel that i'm very useless now ... no nood to study, results lik shit, everything was bad in myself .... can somebody tel me ? how to save myself ? can somebody tel me ? got what things is good in me ? i think the answer would be NO ! nothing is good in me, bad results, lazy, fat, ugly, emotion,summore ?

tired

God, can you help me ? i feel tired of pretending .... pretending tat i din care abt ... i wan to be close with .... can you help me ? i wan to be their ...

confused ...

In this few weeks or month .. my feeling was so confused .. i wan to be close friend to , and yet i scare others will said me .... i wan to be the .. and i know it is impossible ... because ... wil never care of me ... i was just the man in the street tat mean nothing special ... every time i saw the pic , i felt ..... and ....... why izzit they can and i cant ? why izzit everytime.... although i know it is so impossible tat all my dream will come true, but i'm feel so happy and warm everytime i try to dream ...is there somebody to help me ? to help me make my dreams true ... pls ... everytime i saw others got sister and i dont have, i felt lonely ... everytime i wan to tel someone my secrets, and i found no one beside me ... i felt so stress and there is no way for me to let out ... pls ..GOD .. i'm begging you ..pls help me get through this ... i hope GOD can listen to me although i'm not a christian ... Pls help me ... either to make my dreams come true or let me just forgot about it ! i'm really feeling tired of all of this ... i miss them a lot ... why everytime i make a wish to do somebody lil sis and i'm not the one while my best friend will do ? why izzit so unfair ? why izzit everytime my dreams wont come true ? pls help me, GOD !