confused ...

In this few weeks or month .. my feeling was so confused .. i wan to be close friend to , and yet i scare others will said me .... i wan to be the .. and i know it is impossible ... because ... wil never care of me ... i was just the man in the street tat mean nothing special ... every time i saw the pic , i felt ..... and ....... why izzit they can and i cant ? why izzit everytime.... although i know it is so impossible tat all my dream will come true, but i'm feel so happy and warm everytime i try to dream ...is there somebody to help me ? to help me make my dreams true ... pls ... everytime i saw others got sister and i dont have, i felt lonely ... everytime i wan to tel someone my secrets, and i found no one beside me ... i felt so stress and there is no way for me to let out ... pls ..GOD .. i'm begging you ..pls help me get through this ... i hope GOD can listen to me although i'm not a christian ... Pls help me ... either to make my dreams come true or let me just forgot about it ! i'm really feeling tired of all of this ... i miss them a lot ... why everytime i make a wish to do somebody lil sis and i'm not the one while my best friend will do ? why izzit so unfair ? why izzit everytime my dreams wont come true ? pls help me, GOD !